My Spiritual Encounters Preparing For Court on 4/15/14

Thoughts to ponder: As I sit in awareness recognizing the internal things I really need to prepare for not the material preparation for some life changing events occurring the following day. This is about building awareness, messages from spirit, a turkey vulture, facebook glitches, and messages in numbers from Spirit.

 

As I sit here reflecting on today's events, I sit in awareness recognizing the internal things I really need to prepare for tomorrow's big court day and recognizing it is not the material aspects like documents, paperwork, photographs etc. Today I have been preparing for a very big life altering day tomorrow in Brockton Family Court that can affect me in all areas of my life and the life of my family.

I am currently threatened with incarceration of 6mo or longer due to the lack of financial capabilities to comply with current orders despite my diligent efforts and despite the fact the current order is 2x above current child support guidelines. My abuser has repeated pushed for incarceration to punish me despite he is directly attributed to many reasons I have failed to secure gainful employment which I will not belabor here. My abuser has NEVER been criminally charged, sanctioned or penalized for any violations of law despite his arrogant admissions to the Family Courts.

While I was attempting to prepare for court, at times I felt very organized in thought and process and other times I felt scattered having a very difficult time gathering and organizing the required information and documents required for tomorrow's big day due to what I believe were post-traumatic stress episodes I was experiencing due to repeated domestic abuse and legal abuse.

Earlier today, I saw a turkey vulture this morning as I was leaving my house. It was flying in the wind unsteadily lower than normal as if it were about to crash land on the windshield of my truck. This turkey vulture was not graceful nor gliding with ease as it normally would have been literally preparing for the storm ahead but still pursuing forward into the direction it sought. I never saw a turkey vulture fly like that before, but knew nothing was a coincidence and took it as a message from the Universe.

In general, bird symbolism deals with the element of air and air is symbolic of the mind and thoughts. The turkey vulture is one of the largest of bird species and is generally symbolic of patience, grace, and resourcefulness with great vision. As I watched in awareness, I took mental notes of what was happening. In my situation, the turkey vulture was reminding me to surrender to Great Spirit and the impending storm and to glide effortlessly using my own energy. Know that changes are imminent and that I am more divinely protected more than I realize despite all the recent messages from loved ones on the other side stating so clearly to me over the past several months approaching this day.

I had been frustrated with obstacles and clarity needed to try to find a solution to end this repeated cycle of domestic abuse by proxy and legal abuse. The turkey vulture is a reminder that instead of working so hard at working hard, it is time to open up all the heightened senses to assist in navigating through this current situation or impending storm tomorrow. Know that the turkey vulture will assist in uncovering the truths sought and clarify any previous misconceptions. It is time to rise above ... to stand firmly ... and soar with confidence, purpose, and a heightened vision. It is time to break through the barriers and limitations and awaken within without fears or limitations.

I later noticed even Facebook had some glitches. Did you experience that yourself? I noticed especially on one particular post talking about light outshining darkness and the phoenix rising from the ashes a pattern of repeating comments. The post I am referring to is here:

• "Looking forward to an easy breezy springy week after tomorrow's big day in Brockton. Lots of changes happening. Darkness can continue to attempt to extinguish the light, but in the end, the light ALWAYS outshines any darkness. The light always triumphs. Rising Phoenix is birthing right now and lovingly divinely protected by a much higher power. Looking forward to closing this chapter and starting a new one."

Some of the comments on this post repeated anywhere from 2 to 10 times over despite my constant deleting of repeated posts. At first I thought these errors were due to a phone or app glitch, but noticed other people's comments were repeating over and over totaling over 77 comments from only four individuals. This is a little extreme you think?! However, once I acknowledged this maybe a supernatural subliminal message from spirit in itself, the repeating suddenly stopped. Once I saw this occur, I acknowledged the message given to me from Spirit.

All day, without much effort, I was presented with these continuing messages from spirit. I took it as needing to be bopped over the head to knock my anxiety and ADHD way of thinking off its rocker and pay attention. Even mediums such as myself who spend our time communicating with spirit to help others in their spiritual path and healing, sometimes, we as mediums need much stronger or more signs to see the messages when they are for ourselves. We are not immune to basic human nature.

So the messages continue next with a "1:11" with my acknowledgement message thanking Great Spirit for this day and reminding me to stay focused and positive and that I am listening and open to receive their divine guidance.

Later on that evening as I prepared for to go to a new job, I was still contemplating on a strategy for tomorrow's big day. Upon arrival, I had been considering today's pluses and minuses as well as today's achievements and setbacks and taking all of what the day had to offer in all aspects.

As I was doing this, a young man walked towards me. He giggled as he looked at his watch and said "wow it's 7:11" He then laughed and walked away. I instantly knew it was another message from spirit even though he apparently was clueless to the importance of the message ... or was he? After I saw the "7:11", I received the next message from spirit to "stay positive. The truth shall prevail. Keep the faith and your thoughts positive ... NOTE TO SELF: Do the same. Namaste"

The messages continued like an open flood gate despite my acknowledgement of their presence. Clearly Spirit wanted to ensure I saw these messages short of knocking some literal sense into me or was it Spirit's own advertising campaign to get me to see the message clearly and to digest it. Again, without effort, I saw "10:10" with the direct message from Spirit telling me "The cycle is ending. A new path is emerging. Hold on tight for the changes ahead. You have come so far, and your time is emerging."

So the message that I am taking from this experience today is to not over prepare for tomorrow in the material sense. However, to mentally prepare by allowing Spirit to guide me; balance me; and work with me. Everything I need is internal. I need to connect with God, my angels, my guides and those on the other side waiting and willing to assist me in tomorrow's endeavor. I need to surrender to God and what is and to trust in God more.

Let the light come through and shine so brightly that all evil and negativity just falls away to nonexistence during tomorrow's big day.

I hope you enjoyed my ramblings and lessons from Spirit while on my spiritual quest. Namaste. Your comments and thoughts are important to me.

Fear and Abuse

Fear can be the most debilitating thing to keep you from the kind of life the universe has to offer. Is fear keeping you from achieving your true potential? Do you even know if fear is your root cause.

I wrote this blog in my early years trying to find the answers to my desperate need to heal and move forward from the abuse I suffered.

Ever wonder why victims stay with their abusers and DON'T leave? Many are handicapped by the years of fear and control instilled in them by the abuser. Fear of homelessness. Fear of the inability to provide for the children. Fear the abuser will kill the other parent, children, or everyone in a last ditch effort of control. Fear of financial disasters. Fear of losing their children. The list can grow with every threat and action.

Click here to read the entire blog ... http://fearandlawofattraction.blogspot.com/2009/05/fear-is-worse-than-abuser-themself-as.html

A Cardinal Message From Spirit

 Written: April 9, 2013

PHOTO:  http://townofcanandaiguarepublicans.org/gallery/Spring_cardinal.JPG



The time is 5:35 a.m. and the faint sounds of what could be thunder in the distance get my attention or could it be the sounds of the trash being picked up from the dumpster? The sound happens once more, but once again too faint to clearly identify. Then at approximately 5:55 a.m. a much louder repeated echoing boom happened. Ahhhhh the confirmation it was thunder.

One could take one road to the dark, dank, depressing side of the morning and say, “oh how I wish I were still in bed right now”. However, realizing the rain is required for the earth to flourish … for spring flowers to bloom … and for nourishment to all life, I embraced the rain.

As I begin to leave my home wondering if I was going to be stuck in a downpour, I remind myself that it is April 9th and it will be 70 degrees and sunny later on. So I smiled and left my house.

It is now 6:06 a.m. Amidst the dankness and drizzle appears, red cardinal to my right about 10 feet above me brightly displayed on a limb of a branch as if I were watching a black and white film with a red hand colored painted bird singing his song and bolstering his voice. As I walk by him, I am reminded and in awe of his beauty. I felt as if I were watching a movie reel, but instead of the bird was not moving, I was the one moving and watching him as I slowly walked to my car.

His voice was clearer and louder and more beautiful than all the other morning songs combined by the other birds. This is not the first time I have heard him as I hear him every morning. So why is this day different? It is how he presented himself to me, and in a way I knew without a doubt it was a message.

What does this all mean? Well, for you, it can mean something completely different. One thing I have learned over the years is that nature and the universe works in synchronicity with our lives and will always present messages to us if we dare to listen. You can do all your research you want and what others say a meaning is. However, in the end, the meanings are customized in your own language that you must learn to interpret.

Symbolically, the rain can be a reflection of emotions and can symbolize rebirth, sadness, or cleansing. What it means to you is different than what it means to me. For me, it is symbolic of cleansing and rebirth and to know I am safe and protected. It is also to remind me to call upon my angels and ascended masters more as confirmed by the times which in numerology are reflected by the four and five. The four is about the angels and the five is all about transition.

The rumble of thunder was to get my attention and to help me realize the inner power and strength I have to overcome this latest obstacle in my life. Thunder is symbolic of great energy and power and is also associated with Zeus, the god of all gods. Hearing the thunder in the background is a reminder to harness my inner energy and power.

We are nearing the end of one cycle and beginning a new as represented by the date, which in numerology is a ten number. It is also a time of spring which has a long history of spiritual significance throughout the world. Spring is a season symbolic of rebirth, resurrection, and a time when great confrontations and polarities occur in nature: darkness and light, death and rebirth. For me, it is an important stage of self-realization and empowerment and a reminder that the darkness is fading and light is returning.

The cardinal may be a small bird, but it is strong and rich in color and voice, which happen to be the strongest characteristics of this bird. Because this bird is a year round resident, it is associated with the number 12. This can mean a host of things from changes occurring within the next 12 days, 12 weeks, or 12 months; or it can mean communication. Since this was a male cardinal, it is associated with perseverance. Since I am female and if I were to call on the female cardinal inside, it would be associated with intuition.

The color of the cardinal is also very significant. Once again, what it means to you can be different from what it means to me. The bright red color has associations to the base chakra, to the Cardinals of the Catholic Church, and to the kundalini in yoga.

The message for me is a simple reminder to listen to my gut and rise above the situation no matter how dire it appears to me. The message is reminding me to see the bigger picture and sing loud enough for the whole world to hear me in a voice that is strong, confident, unwavering, and louder than all the other voices around me. Keep singing until someone hears me and never give up. It is time to activate the personal power within and leave behind all fears and excuses.

Considering the very challenging events that have transpired over the past two weeks, I am grateful to spirit for this day and for this confirmation message I needed to empower my strength and courage and quell my fears. Thank you for helping me walk the walk, speak my true voice, and have the strength and confidence to do so.

Namaste.